In my opinion, there are two types of falling in love for human beings, Natural-love and Artificial-Love...
...Hearts can't be matched easily. They're not as flexible as brains. Brains get convinced with logical statements, they are fine for daily decision-makings, but when it comes to more complex issues like Love, a sharper assistant is required. You can't make a fool out of your heart just like you do to your brain, not for a long time. Hearts ONLY get happy with Natural-Love...
It's raining out there. The weather is great. It is cold, but not cold enough to bother you. It is wet and it smells like the "rain", you know. There's something about nature that really attracts me occasionally, the night, the stars, the rain, the sea. The whole thing. They all have something in them reminding me to kinda settle down, even just for a second. Their silence. Their extreme peace. It grabs me and then never let me go. It tell me something about myself, who am I? What I want?
Wait. Maybe they've become a part of clichéd questions, frequently asked and even more than that heard. But their true meaning and purpose I think, is just buried under their prevalence. The answer they target never gets old. The need for that answer, also, never gets resolved for us as human beings.
All of us, with absolutely no exception at all, need to have a clear definition of ourselves. It might change. It will definitely change. That's very common and natural. The current perception you have about yourself, it might be different of what you were or thought you were last year or last month or even last day. But one thing is obvious, you CAN'T live without a perception. A CLEAR perception.
But the very thing that can be even more important, is that the way you are outside of yourself, it must be the same you think you are inside. Try to keep them the same, do that. Or you'll always feel something really heavy on your chest, making your breath harder and harder.
You know, during the last two or three years, I've been struggling with one question: What is the meaning of life?
It took me a long time to finally understand that that approach was a ridiculous one, because the question I was asking from myself or literally the whole world, was just wrong at the first place! The meaning of the life is nonsense, instead, try to ask the meaning of yourself. Then the life will shape itself upon the way you make sense to the world around you.
Maybe that's exactly why living with a self that doesn't match your REAL self, is painful. Because by doing that, you're risking your real self to be hidden. Whatever it is, bad or even awful in your belief, you're telling a lie about it, not only to yourself, but to the whole world around you.
A lie that will be believed soon or late by everything around you, everything but yourself. That's what hurts most.
Do you have some new ideas about something? Are they big enough to scare the people around you? Do you always have problems with them, trying to blindly stop you from taking real actions for your dream? Then I've written it just for you!
I thought I need to clear my mind about something. People around me are just too blind to see what I see. They can't see the flashing signs in their faces. But I see. People may be too blind to see what I think of, dream of, to be a part of their reality. But I'm not. I see the people every day, which has taught themselves, just every single thing I want to learn today. I find more and more people pursuing what I dream of too, in different ways, just like the ways I want to start from. People may be too blind to understand that every single thing -at least most of them- I talk about every day, dream of every day, am passionate about just every single day, can be real, can come true. They're too blind too see signals that prove my sayings "I know the way to make them come true, no matter how big or even unachievable they seem to you right now, I know how to do them. I don't know every single step to them but that's just OK, because no one knows exactly every single step to what they want to do, it's a process. All we need to know is only a few steps forward, and the rest will just show up to us as we're taking current steps. It's all set."
But people! They make me crazy! I'm just tired of talking to them, proving that what I want is not just a dream, but can be MORE than a dream. What they don't want to believe, they just won't believe. No matter how hard you try to provide them actual evidences to prove the rightness of your BIG dreams, they're way bigger than what these small minds need to start believing in.